Black Women’s Anger
2 America’s Poetry
You’re unstable
You’re mean
You’re wrong
You’re over the top
You’re unprofessional
You’re ignorant
You’re a liar
You need a hobby
You need a job
You need a man
You need a clue
You need to stop making excuses
You need an education
You’re not fitting in
You’re not adapting
You’re “out of compliance”
You’re no authority
You’re not important
You’re not worthy
“I just can’t”
It all translates to the same
YOU DON’T MATTER
Is what haters constantly say
I’ll speak anyway
I matter!
Black life matters!
Black Lives Matter!
Regardless of the “unpopular slogan”
What kind of person cares more about wording
Than the lives we are trying to protect?????
Why is it such a big deal
If “race” means nothing
Then why does white supremacy exist?
I’ll wait……………………
This question has been on read
For longer than Capitalism has existed
But we want to pretend systemic oppression fake?
It’s literally Colonialism!
Passed down generation after generation
Entire families profit from it for hundreds and hundreds of years
Some even thousands
But we’re not allowed to talk about it!
The predators get uncomfortable when you shed light on their predation
Our state literally is making it illegal
As are so many of the others in GOP leadership
To discuss any form of factual history
Or literally to even advocate for our existence
If their own were treated the same
It would be a different story now wouldn’t it
But you want us to lay down so you can walk all over us
As well as remain silent when you suffocate us with knees
Claiming
The chains of modern day enslavement
Are in our imagination
How disgusting to even think in such ways
As if your delusions must be our existence because you will it?
That’s the danger of the “manifestation” myth
When you believe in brainwashed fantasy rather than reality
The cognitive dissonance you create for yourself
Becomes your entire refrain
For eternity
Until you find the courage
To face your own delusional thinking
But you’re too afraid
Meanwhile
You're calling me “snowflake”
LOL
Funny
I’m the only person in history
To face my abusers
The way that I have
Geneva couldn’t do what I have done
But I’m the one who is weak?
Interesting
They were so big and bold in the light of day
When they thought I was weak
When I expose their lies with truth
They turn into injured children
Now they throw mountains at me from their hiding places
Concealing their hands
Puns intended
I’ve always had to be multifaceted to survive this mess
This didn’t begin with the last adminisration
My abuser was one of the main engineers
Of the chaos the entire planet is drowning in
It’s gone on decades under my observation
But I am one person
Black people have ALWAYS been on these lands
So our own stories tell the truth
Of just how far predation goes
To enslave prey
But race doesn’t matter
So
No matter
I grew up surviving “enhanced torture”
You’re literally child’s play
It’s very irritating when you’re a grown man
Or an apologist woman
“Following the rules”
To ensure you don’t make waves
Meanwhile I’m parting oceans
Doing what everyone said I couldn’t
Without reward
Without acknowledgement
Without an audience
Without support or aid
Without payment
Without the credit I am owed
Without respect Congressional Black Caucus Library of Congress
I do it because it needs to be done
Not to posture, get likes, or to be fake
The whole step of the way
My family and I are scapegoated for the crimes you create
But you wonder why I’m angry
I wonder why you aren’t
Being okay with a holocaust is not a healthy thing!
It certainly isn’t sane!
Yet I can see how that is confusing
You either have awareness or you don’t
When you lack it
No matter what anyone says
You’ll continue down the path of destruction
Thinking you can achieve a different result
Playing into the hands of your own disease
Projecting at me
Expecting me to accept it
Shocked when I don’t
Complaining about the fact that I complain about the fact
That you dehumanize me and my entire community
To eradication
SMH
But you wonder why I’m angry
SMH
My ancestors taught me patience
“It’s a long road daughter
Do not get lost along the way”
If no human ever stands by my side
My ancestors always point the way
I’m covered in their blood
In case you didn’t know
YES that also means Jesus
I don’t take any inspired writing literally
But I understand the metaphysics in the meaning
The true spirituality being revealed
The coded intelligence
Being imparted
The science hidden form those who burn books
Hoard resources
Destroy growth
I don’t care if you don’t approve
Who are you to tell me what to believe
If you could be trusted
You wouldn’t be abusing
SMH
But you wonder why I’m angry
Regardless of the atrocities
We face daily
At the hands of those
Who claim race means nothing President Joe Biden
We continue to be the scapegoats
While those attacking us control everything Speaker Pelosi
Particularly the narrative
Of who, what, where, when, why, and how
It’s always been race based
This has NEVER been a mystery
Except to the generation of children
Who grew up under education defunding
But you’re afraid because I say
“Defund Police”
How many unarmed Black people have they killed since 2016? Amnesty International USA
EVERYTHING that affects life for Black people is defunded
So why are you so afraid of ending the militarized police state?
My handlers created it
It most certainly was race based
LOL
Isn’t that why you get so angry if someone even suggests
Threatening it with defunding?
“No you must say something else instead!”
We have
For hundreds of years
You continued to ignore everything
No matter what we do or say
You have a problem with it
You’re fine defunding schools, the post office, health care
But not the means by which you dominate through force
But you see nothing wrong there?
If we mention discrimination
We are told “race doesn’t matter we all have equal opportunity”
Just because you repeat a lie continuously
That will never make it true
But you expect us to accept ethnic cleansing anyway
Turning our heads to our own suffering
Just as you do
We would be mentally ill if we did
That’s the one thing the one percent doesn’t want to admit
Regardless of their race, ethnicity, country of origin, or religion
Those who fight for their own survival with integrity aren’t ill
But what of those who use violent means to dominate the most vulnerable
Can you say the same?
We simply have courage
This post will be censored, muted, and shadow banned
Like every other thing I have said
Since the internet came into existence
It didn’t begin with COVID, protests, or a treasonous administration United Nations UNICEF
It’s gone on all my life because the very men targeting me for my race
Wanted it to be that way
To keep me enslaved
So “not talking about it” sure does make it convenient
For the predators doing the abusing
Maintaining a militarized state infiltrated by an insurgency
Makes it easy to maintain that “normal” state
The elite wish to maintain
It’s profitable for them to deny my humanity
So of course they don’t agree
That’s what Capitalism is
We’re expected to accept it! Amnesty International
“No one will ever believe you
No one will ever help you
No one cares”
That’s how I was raised
The very men who campaigned on hate
Knowing it was the only way they could win
Propagandized the whole “equality” myth
To hide their sins
All of them
Including enhanced torture and child molestation UNICEF USA UNESCO Human Rights Watch Secretary of Defense
But I’m not supposed to talk about it
As they continue to torture me daily
SMH
“Your life is worth only a percentage of a white man’s”
They raised me saying
Not just them but their cronies, families, friends
It’s how they exist
They will do anything to maintain it
But they are a tiny minority of the population
But you want me to accept the racist myth
That race doesn’t matter?
Just like they tried to force me through torture to say
That pedophilia and incest are a natural instinct
NO!
I have more integrity than that!
I was 5 years old in kindergarten when they taught me this
“NO CRT”
But racism and deviance are okay
THIS from public school
Mandated
Private is worse so don’t even go there!
Yet every day of every year of my entire life
These are the things I am told
The abuses went far beyond that
Even reached molestation, rape, enhanced torture, human trafficking
Forced breeding, selling kids
Constantly leaving me out in the cold
Isolated
Alone
No resources
Anything to break me
But I didn’t break I bent
So I never gave in to their attempts to get my “compliance”
Deviance is deviance and I won’t claim it to be okay
The violation of human rights is not “normal”
I’m not going to kiss anybody’s ass
To make it seem like it’s appropriate
But teaching about actual true history is a bad thing?
I guess it is if you want to hide it
If you don’t want us angry
Why continue to treat us like we deserve violation?
Seems to me you need a purpose for your existence
Chaos serves to be that gratification
Abusing the Black Community is the narcist’s and psychopath’s dream
You get off on abusing
No one cares Congressional Black Caucus
It’s so easy to simply say
The problem is her anger
But ignore the actions that create it
I’ll continue to speak
Regardless of what you think
Or who I expose for abusing me!
I have the right to voice the truth of my experiences UN Women UN Human Rights Progressive Caucus
Even when you don’t like it
Or fear the consequences of our actions and/or inaction
Your guilt is your burden to bear
You claim I’m the “snowflake”
Yet YOU are the one constantly triggered by reality
Melting away like a little flake falling onto dry land
I’m not stalking or attacking YOU
That’s what YOU are doing or allowing to be done to ME
You’re angry that I draw attention to your wrongdoing
Stop doing it then!
I get the fact that you lack a range of emotions
That puts you on the spectrum of severely disordered personalities
You complain when I say too much
You want me to “keep it simple” because intelligence makes you afraid
None of your triggers have anything to do with me
Yet you attack, abuse, cancel and complain
Calling yourselves the victims the whole time
Claiming I create the consequences of your actions
I’m supposed to “accept” what you deem to be my “lot in life”
Because you said that’s how it should be
But I was trained to obey NO ONE
Once command broke the chain
THEREFORE
I Am and shall continue to be
Precisely who and what I deem
This is how it will 4 eva’ be
You don’t get to dominate with hate
Then turn around and claim victim with me
I’ve been holding the most horrendous predators accountable
All my life
Why would I bow to even lesser beings
I don’t care what you think
You have no business with me other than to tell the truth
But you can’t accept facts therefore
I don’t even know your name!
I don’t know anyone who was forced to sacrifice what I have
For this country
Yet I’m still not even considered human United Nations
My very identity denied by the government that trained me
And forces me to perform for them
Using torture to gain compliance
State sanctioned attacks if I try to fight back
Keeping me in isolation
Starving me
Contaminating water, the environment, food
Everything
Keeping me from healthcare
Income
Means of escape
Extracting intel
Like I’m some kind of machine
SMH
No irony
Just engineered hate
My handlers didn’t pretend it to be any other thing
“I want to be honest with you
It’s not personal it’s business
I just wanna’ win”
They both said
That’s how I was raised
But I’m supposed to look the other way because YOU are afraid?
I’m supposed to accept that life was meant to be this way
Because melanin runs through my veins?
Insane!
But I’m the one who is “divisive” and “threatening” or a “snowflake”
Strange
If your version of stability requires insanity
You can keep that all day
I’ll stick to what I know
After all it’s how I survived decade after decade
Up against paramilitary attacks, enhanced torture, billionaire rapists
And a global elite human trafficking ring
I’m still standing
After almost 5 decades
The very men claiming that I had to be tortured
“In the interests of national security” Secretary of Defense
Can’t even claim the level of training they forced on me U.S. Department of State
In fact
They can’t claim anything at all because they are dead
But I’m supposed to remain afraid?
I’m not supposed to talk about anything?
I’m supposed to pretend it’s all in my head?
LOL
What about muscle memory?
You have all the advantage
Privilege, money, power, wealth, technology
I have none of that
Am fully disabled from fighting for this country
That claims not to know who I am
While forcing me to fight for it! Human Rights Watch
But I can’t even get COVID relief Amnesty International USA
Unredacted education credentials
Payment of my contract
Healthcare
Or any other form of aid
If I do get anything
It’s after much begging
“I’ll make you crawl on your belly”
One handler said because I refused to participate
In his predatory pedophile games
No accountability
No transparency
No oversight
No education, prevention, intervention
No change
Yet STILL
I’m considered more threatening than terrorist organizations
And treated that way
DISGUSTING! The White House
But you wonder why I’m angry
BECAUSE I HAVE EVERY REASON TO BE!
My worst abuser
True sadist in every way
Knew I would say everything I have said
So he tortured me in advance U.S. Department of State
But I’m supposed to accept that I have been abused
For the sake of deviance, grift, abuses of authority, and myth
SMH!
At least I didn’t betray my oath
Or commit treason
I actually obeyed EVERY order
Even under the worst of abuses to myself
Can you say the same?
You pathologize my anger
Criminalize my survival
Propagandize my intelligence
And make trillions off of me
Decade after decade
Even my handler stated precisely what I am owed
Openly
From the podium
A short time after taking office
Then they came for his head!
“I have to get it back for you
I’m the one that lost it”
But he wasn’t successful now was he
So here I am!
Penniless.
You chose to ignore the facts
And continue to turn your heads
Saying things like
“I’m not responsible for your problems”
Did you contribute to, or aid the men who created them in any way???
As my children and I suffer daily???
You laugh and scrub our existence away
With the very Ai that I helped shape
From its inception
Till this very day
But you wonder why I’m angry
Even pathologizing my freaking escape from enslavement
SMH!
DISGUSTING!
Your apathy is telling
I’ll continue to speak
You’ll continue dismissing
While the present gets “back to normal”
Which means continuing ethnic cleansing
I’ll continue to write my
New Trail Of Tears COVID diary poetry
You’ll continue to go out of your way to stop me
No innocent person has to stalk for any reason
No innocent person attacks senselessly
No innocent person scapegoats
No innocent person abuses the most vulnerable in society
The proof is in the pudding
It always has been
It always will be
You aren’t intelligent enough to understand it
But in the future
The most advanced scientists will wipe hate from your genes
Meanwhile
As it stands
Here in this day and age
I remain surveilled 24/7/365
While the U.S. gov denies EVERYTHING it owes me
As you put forth so much effort to hide me every day
I push forward because that’s how I was trained
Human rights are not a negotiation
They are the rights I was born with
Even if you think you can deny my humanity
All this and still
I don’t even know your name
But you wonder why I’m angry
Perhaps it’s your own anger
You should reflect on instead of projecting
At least mine is appropriately placed
And expressed
As you behave irrationally
Not only do I refuse to let you control my narrative
I refuse to let you dominate me
While you focus your attentions on the negativity of hate
Or minimizing its devstation
I continue to navigate the singularity
Meanwhile
You have no idea what that means
No matter
I Am anyway!
Always have been
Always will be
I’ll let you know if I want your attention
Just keep this in mind
I still don’t even know your name
Yeah, I’m angry
What of it?
What my emotions do have no business with you
If you could think independently that would be one of the basics
Thinking I am who I am not
You’ll continue reaping the consequences
That’s how I was trained
I don’t back down
I don’t wave white flags
I don’t play games
I don’t simply maintain
I hold the line to save lives
I move strategically
Not because I’m coming from a position of weakness
Vulnerable does not mean weak
It literally is simply a human trait
If you had a full range of emotions
The ability to express them
The ability to think freely
Then my existence wouldn’t be so intimidating
You want me to dumb myself down
Hide who I am
Lie about my reality
To keep you in a position you don’t belong in
Preying with impunity
You’re crazy!
If you’re honest
Have done no wrong
You have nothing to fear
If all I do is tell the truth
And that terrifies you
Then it’s your own sickness eating away
I’m not minimizing me
To make you “great”
So
Yeah
When and if I get angry
I’ll express how I see fit!
Generally
It’s VERY well placed
GET OVER IT!
