Instability Is
Denying reality
Choosing cognitive dissonance
Over a growth in consciousness
Chasing approval, likes, clicks
Rather than solutions
To cleaning up the messes you make
Instability is
Pretense
Building a house on weak grounds
Clearly choosing faulty foundations
Then eradicating what’s true
To hide the messes you make
Getting angry at the outcome
When it crashes into oblivion
Scapegoating those you target
To be your patsy
So you don’t have to face yourself
Instability is
Being afraid to look within
Let alone without
With anything other than
Rose colored glasses
The very thing
I am constantly accused of
Yet I didn’t trust the untrustworthy
I blew the whistle on them
While you stand beside them
Protecting them
From truth, justice, reality
Insanity is instability
Choosing to play
With other people’s reality
It doesn’t make you powerful
It makes you weak
A joke?
Indeed.
Isn’t that how you treated me?
Decade after decade.
Then when I point out the obvious
I’m being “overly negative”
As if you deserve anything from me
Must mean I’m unstable then
If I don’t worship your narcissism
The way you command
SMH
You never knew me.
Because YOU don’t understand
A reality check
I’m supposed to accept
Be eradicated?
Never
You can go straight to hell with that.
SMH
Instability is
Being unable to check yourself
Living in false reality
Created by someone else
Turning a blind eye to depravity
For any reason
Least of all
Ones that scapegoat innocence
There is no excuse
Not even, “I was deceived”
Are you an adult
Capable of asking questions
What limitations do you have
I am more than willing
To make accommodations
What I won’t do
Is lie to you
Or to myself
As an old friend of mine
Once said
“I won’t lie to you
If I do
I won’t be there in the end”
Yeah
“BE YOURSELF”
Another old friend said
He got it from me
Then spit it right back at me
When I needed it
Even when he didn't believe
He still did
He had no faith in systems, money, men
He believed in my mind
Enough said
I can remember a lot of things in life
But nothing positive
From the ones who manipulate
BECAUSE of my race, socioeconomic background
Disability status
Abusing my position
Trapped under your crony friends
Looking back on it
Every time one of you said
“Oh no I can’t help you
I can’t do that”
You showed exactly who you are
Spineless filth
But kids tend to offer the benefit of doubt
I’m not a child anymore
So you don’t get to exploit the naïve position
Those who sell out to predators
Thinking they can save themselves
Always believe they are safe from consequences
Truth is predators save ones like you for the end
Ensuring you lose every ounce of humanity
Giving away your family and friends
I’m not made of that ilk
Loyalty & royalty run in my DNA
I give zero fux
For anyone on any shite time
I’m not about games
I’m about results
The Long Walk
Is necessary
If you intend to accomplish the mission
So Be It
I Am She Who Causes To Be
My 4 fathers taught me well
“Obey no man”
They all said
“When there is no one left
But yourself
You will need something to hold
Make sure it’s worth it”
My word is my bond
I maintain my oath
I keep going until the job is done
Regardless of my location
It’s not complicated
It’s called ethics
As we see in politics daily
Morals are subjective
Easily manipulated to fit
An official narrative
Ethics are a set of standards
That never go away
But like the constitution
They can be upgraded
Never eroded
That would be devolution
I AM THAT I SAY I AM
I will NEVER care
Who thinks what
About me, my melanin, disability status
Gender, ethnicity, or lack of funds in a bank
I make it rain anyway
Never needed what you take
I am made in the image
Of THE Creator
Male & female created
Both with everything needed
Within
To be whole
To be complete
To be self willed
As if I would let someone
Who can’t understand the most basic
Control my highest self
SMH
I won’t be less than
To make those too afraid to look in a mirror
My superior
Would be the definition of insane
There will be none on top of me
Ever again
So Be It
SHE
