Milestones

Blessings In Disguise

One of the greatest milestones I ever hit

Happened in this moment

I never knew it would be like this

But I always knew it would happen

I thought things would be different

But I knew I would be scapegoated

All the abuses all these years

Still blamed for others actions

Yet nothing will stop me

From being who I AM

Or blowing the whistle on cruelty

It’s sick

That I should have to live like this

But I didn’t create it

I simply rose to the occasion

But I will NEVER let anyone

Walk all over me

I never did

I’ve always fought back

Even when it yielded me

Repeated beatings

Murder attempts

Abuses no one should ever experience

Then slandered as a “whore”

“Homewrecker”

“Bigot”

“Abuser”

“Predator”

“Gold digger”

“Thief”

I’ve worked since I was 4 years old

While others have taken all my money

All my credit

For all I have created

I can’t imagine taking from someone

Abusing them

Or watching them get abused, tortured

Refusing to take a stand

I can’t imagine being so selfish

Assuming you and yours

Are worth more than me and mine

But claiming to be for equality

While living off someone else’s gifts

As if you were born for privilege

And I for enslavement

What kind of illness is this

Whatever leads to this kind of grift, sadism

I want NOTHING to do with it

I’ve ALWAYS been this person

Regardless of what some predator said

Why listen

When you’re so easily mislead

About someone who did nothing but show love

You prove what’s in your soul

Regardless of how “great” you appear

Such actions are deceiving

I live in the authentic

Whatever fake exists in your spirit

Is no consequence of my actions

I’ve shown so much kindness

So much love

So much generosity

So much everything

Yet all you did was take

Allow others to take

Allow me to be blamed

How can I forget

What I am currently living

No more will I live

No more will I be silent

You can claim your money

But did you have to claim mine?

Stolen through evil means

Everything about you is what it is

Placing you in a manufactured paradise

Pretending to be like me

But you’ll always be fake

Created from my dreams, my visions, my energy

All to gain money, power, sex, attention

Sounds narcissistic to me

You turned out precisely as you began

With someone else’s genius

All you had to do was be somewhat honest

Instead

You abandoned

Over and over again

You had decades to balance the scales

All you did was delay

Which kept me trapped in torture

Sick

Why such cruelty

Why so many games

You asked for me

I delivered every time

Every request

Can’t imagine how you could look at me

At my lowest

Then act like you don’t know me

Because you think I’m too beath your life experience

You forget

I know who you are when you take off the mask

When you’re all alone

Busted down to pretext

You’re nothing like what you put on

That’s all an act

I AM all the time

What you see is what you get

What I say is what I am

You’re one person in public

Another inside your head

Except when it profits your show

You act like I’m not real

I thought you meant friendship

Not griftship

I thought you were asking for compassion

Not a free ride again

After all, you are well aware that I have nothing

I never imagined you betrayed me from the beginning

How sick is that

All I asked for was truth

Clarity

Ease my suffering in the war to which I was

Conscripted

Instead

You joined in

I just can’t!

Letting go forever

Cutting EVERY tie

All things severed

Forever

I won’t even remember your name

Don’t take it harshly

Just know this is a lesson

I loved you for who I thought you were

Who I thought you were being

Turns out I didn’t know you

But guess what

You’re one of MANY

That’s what happens when you’re tortured

Hard to find clarity

But that’s how oppression works

YOU have been all in with it

Sick

Decade after decade

You helped bury me in darkness

Unapologetically

Was there a gun to your head?

No, it was at mine

I thought it hurt you

Turns out you just wanted who knows what

But certainly not to be honest

Or to help me get away from the binds

To so many torturing me is funny

So many of those who abused me are your close friends

Hence the reason, this is no surprise

You are who you choose to be with

To treat a human this way

To me it’s disgusting

The very thing you say about the man

Who continues to help me every day

You claim he’s evil

Because you listen to propaganda STILL

Yet he never did anything like what have

Actually, he jumps in to help when the weak & vulnerable

Are being targeted

You on the other hand are content

To let it happen

I see you clearly now

You were never the man I imagined

You do you

Just don’t do me

I won’t have it!

So Be It

SHE

p.s. Balance the scales

Pay what you owe

Or reap what you sow

It’s not a threat

If that’s what you claim

It’s energetic

Again, I said “lesson”