No One Noticed
He had the kind of loneliness that’s rare. The kind where a soul has longed for ages to connect with someone who understands their pain. He was tired of waiting. He thought forcing it was better than maybe never. It’s weird to think that someone could be that isolated from an entire species and no one noticed. Particularly someone who was world-famous. He was rarely not lonely. He felt isolation that most will never experience, he made sure that I did.
“Walk in my shoes then” he always used to say. He always wanted me to understand his pain, it’s even harder to get away from now. In the midst of all the chaos, he created, or helped create, or orchestrated. The story changes all depending on who you talk to.
The bottom line for me is baggage. Luggage that never belonged to me but he thought I should carry the load because he wanted me to. “If you care you will” and not caring was never an actual viable option. Once he decided that was how things would be, that is how things were. I have lived it my entire life, no one noticed.
Do better, be better.
