Pandora’s Black Box Purge Continues
Shiloh Poetry
I’m not your projection
Your cash cow
Your monkey
Your experiment
You’re human zoo
You’re red ledger
You’re kill
You’re sexual object
I’m not your drone
You’re scapegoat
You’re target
You’re slave
I’m not you’re diagnosis
You’re karma
You’re dark cloud
You’re tool
You’re expectation
You’re friend
You’re enemy
You’re stigma
You’re slander
You’re manifestation
You’re ideology
You’re boil to pick at
I’m a human
With my own mind, body, and soul
My own feelings, thoughts, and goals
My own desires, experiences, and consciousness
My own purpose
I wasn’t born to be fodder for anything
But least of all
For your delusions
You’re political rhetoric
You’re lies, deceit, manipulations
You’re agendas
You’re outcomes
You’re grift
I’m human
Being
In my own skin
Full of melanin
Blackness
Living as a human being
In a world that hates my very essence
A spiritual being
In a human experience
I don’t have to be anything
You want from me!
You want to talk
About owning agency
I Am Mine!
I will not bow down to any tyrant!
I will not be enslaved, ensnared, pinned in
If you attack me
I MOST CERTAINLY WILL DEFEND!
I will not be your crash test dummy
Or the face of your gatekeeping mechanisms
I won’t be your snitch
I won’t be your bitch
I won’t be your ho
You’re whore
You’re slut
You’re baby mamma
You’re statistic
Or anything else!
I AM ME
I AM MINE
MY LIFE IS MY OWN
I WILL DIE FIGHTING FOR IT
AS WELL AS PROTECTING ALL THOSE I LOVE
SO DON’T THINK THIS IS HOW IT ENDS!
That doesn’t mean I won’t fight!
I won’t make it easy!
That doesn’t mean I’m sick
It means I’m lucid
It means I see through the fake
It means the propaganda can’t affect me
It means I see through the veil
It means I won’t be a puppet on a string
It means I won’t sacrifice my life working
Remaining unpaid!
I won’t invent, create, write, design, or achieve
Only to have my excellence appropriated
By lesser men!
If you could do what I do
You would have!
What do you need me, my DNA, my creations for
If you can do it?
Stop it!
You are not at all complicated
Just annoying and dangerously ignorant
I have ALWAYS had the courage of my convictions
Even if your bias wouldn’t let you see it
I maintain my integrity
My ethics sustain me
Just like my training
I survived EVERYTHING thrown at me
For 46 years
Including black site torture
Human trafficking
Rape and molestation
As well as the loss of my children
Nothing has broken me
I learned very early on
By some of the most highly skilled masters in the world
How to bend but never break
How to be the water
Not like the water
How to be the air
Not like it
How to what I need
In every given moment
Don’t hate because you are afraid of such strength
You have no choice but to get out of my face
Or deal with it
I’m NOT stopping!
Even if I have no concept of where the energy will come from
I wait until I am able to manifest it
I know who I Am
Where I have been
Where I am going
What my destiny is
How it all relates to what is truly happening
I won’t be beaten into submission
Neither will my children
ANY OF THEM!
Life is a right that every living human
Is born with
I won’t be ground down into any substance
If you thought that’s who I was
That was YOUR mistake!
You will not take anything from me!
I won’t allow it!
If I shed this body
My consciousness still lives
It’s a shame you can’t comprehend the science
But then again
You are terrified of such things!
SMH
Xenophobia is a hell of a drug
But I don’t indulge in things
That keep me blinded and arrested!
You need to try THAT
Instead of trying to control the lives of others
Attempting to suppress us into extinction
Because YOU are afraid to grow beyond your own limitation
Why should I allow my life to be dictated
By your ignorance?
Why should WE allow any of it?
Why should we be your caricature
Because you are too weak to understand
What life truly is
The best thing I can pass down to my kids
Is knowing who they are
Who they come from
Where there ancestors walked
What they can do
With all that melanin in their DNA
It’s more than just a way to get a tan!
You can’t strip nature from a human being
Certainly not from me and my kids!
You won’t water us down
Blocking out the sun won’t limit our genetics!
You can’t clone us to coopt our gifts!
You have to walk it
Generation after generation
You can only brainwash sheep
That’s why I’m still me
I’ve ALWAYS known who I am
Even with amnesia
I don’t have to remember every experience lived
I only need to know who TF I Am!
I’m not a bot
I never have been
I never will be
I’m the power your worst nightmares
Are afraid to see
You can’t break me with your knee of tyranny
Hoping to snuff, suffocate, and drown life out of me
And my progeny
They already know who they are
They will always be whole and complete
Even if they shed their bodies
Their consciousness surpasses the most advanced technology
You can’t force me beneath
Because I am a woman
Black
Intelligent
Educated
Neuro-divergent
Outspoken
Confident
Penniless
Disabled
FULL of inner strength!
I’m not your military section 8
Or your shit under your shoe that needs scraping
I’m the force of awakening you wish you could see
Keep your pathologizing and criminalizing
Away from me and my progeny
We can thrive just fine without your inference
You can’t teach what you can’t be!
But that’s the problem though isn’t it
Our Blackness!
Our resilience!
Our ability to survive anything!
Our brilliance!
Our ability to create!
Our ability to thrive even under the harshest of conditions!
Our ability to influence movement!
I am The Black Rose that grew through the concrete
I pushed through with my will
I shall not relinquish me
To the imaginations and machinations of deviants!
All you can do is hope the heat of my truth blade
Never has to be pointed in your direction!
If you have wronged me
I suggest you get it straight!
Because what I have seen
I cannot unsee
The truth cannot be erased
If you have slandered me
I suggest you tell the truth to reverse the direction
If you continue to accost me
I promise
I won’t hold back from deploying my training
Until the scales are balanced
Pandora’s Black Box purge continues
Deal with it!
’Til Shiloh
