Still Getting Hacked
I don’t even have control over my own home network or the keyboard on my laptop but I’m supposed to be able to control how systemic oppression affects my life? That’s unrealistic. Even if I were fully able-bodied, and “magical” so that I could “manifest” what I need as people have told me my entire life (including my handler, as he tortured me and told me to “make” him stop), isn’t it abusive to expect me to be oppressed by a toxic system designed to harm me and expect me to use “magic” to solve the problem? It’s even more egregious considering the problem didn’t originate with me to begin with? I’m all for spirituality, but I am also practical and grounded in reality even when others aren’t. Never expect me to participate in your delusion with you. That includes attempting to force me to believe I am someone I am not because YOU think I am.
Equality means precisely that, equality. Either we are free and equal or we are not. There is no such thing as someone more deserving of human rights than others. I don’t deserve to have my inalienable rights dismissed because someone has determined that is what I deserve. No one does! There is no such thing as my disabilities or trauma not being valid or important enough to have my human rights protected.
People have always treated me like I am less than and told me it was because that is what I deserve. There is no mechanism for accountability for these crimes, yet I am expected to take it quietly and do nothing to defend myself. When I do speak out in defense of myself, I am treated worst than sexual predators, war criminals, and insurgents.
Why does anyone feel they have the power to usurp every law known to humanity and take away my agency as a human being? THAT is more magical thinking and it should never have any place in situations where people have some authority over anyone’s life. Sometimes those screaming the loudest about other people's “mental health” are the ones who are most unstable and they are simply using childish and disruptive ways to hide it. I was forced to evolve without any respect for my wishes, desires, feelings, abilities, disabilities, circumstances, or age. Yet the privileged class has no requirement to work on themselves, their destructive behaviors, or to be held accountable for the damage they cause regardless of how large the scale is.
Abuse is abuse regardless of the form and I won’t pretend otherwise. I am expected to be accountable for everything that enters my life, yet those who violate my rights, my body, my finances have no responsibility to address their abusive behaviors and repair the harm? NOW THAT is some powerful privilege, yet America keeps saying it’s all fake and I am crazy for thinking otherwise. I don’t have to accept that, I never did. Seeing beyond the gaslight and calling it out doesn’t make me delusional or threatening, it means I am lucid. Fighting against oppression means I am strong, resilient, and courageous, where is the negative in that?
