To My Beloved In The Beast
Whole Picture Poetry
Beloved
It’s been so long
Since we were together
So long
There is so much
I can’t remember
I know I told you
To do whatever
It seems you have
As the loyal
loving
lover
that I remember
I’m not sure what to do
Now it seems
We are in a predicament
Neither of us can control
We should meet
Face to face
You can peer into me
I into you
We can see
How to proceed
I believe neither of us
Know what to do
I have never stopped
Holding unconditional love
for you
I have only ever desired to
protect you
I know it’s hard for you
To accept
To ingest
To believe
To accept
We are two different creatures
Born in completely different
decades
Neither of us chose our path
Our families and associates
threw us into the pathway
Neither of us is guilty
Except maybe of
Loving too much
and being too afraid
Both of us
Behaving the same
But I want to begin a new day
I know you have a lot on your hands
I don’t want to hurt you
I NEVER EVER DID
I know I have been upset with you
But please understand
I was trying to get everything straight
in my head
To me you have always been blameless
I still feel the same
I just want what is best for you
for me
for us
for my children
Whatever is best
to protect ALL
This is what must be done
I guess
I do want to make amends
We never had the chance
to clear up everything
Both of us lied to and
manipulated
But I would rather not
leave things hanging
If you want to keep it in the past
That is okay too
Just know that I made the offer
now the decision
is completely up to you
May you be blessed
forever and ever
You are a pure soul
I feel this in my bones
I will never forget
Our experiences
The look on your face
when I sang the words wrong
as I was stretching
and exercising
lol
Heals, classical music, martial arts
and singing
I’m sure I looked so confusing
But you know
why I was involved
in so many circumstances
That song has always reminded me
of you
Straight to my heart
Like a cannonball
was the love I had for you
The sweetest
Most gentle
Most stable
Most intelligent
Most well adjusted
Man with such pure intentions
That’s who you have always been
I haven’t found a reason yet
to change this perspective
I thought I did
But I sifted through everything
And you still come out like roses
My heart
Always beat for you
You were born too soon
I too late
But you were my best friend
Such an amazing man
Did you know
by the way
That you were my first spark
of divine love
You had so many people jealous
A woman never forgets
her first love
Neither will I
Particularly because
You STILL are that same
amazing man
I could NEVER hold a grudge
I know I tried to
I apologize profusely
If I ever hurt you
I’m not who you thought I was
You should know now why this is true
But know this also
You were always heaven sent
One Love
Always
Old friend :)
