What My Tears Are For

For DVAM

Pandora

Let’s do this

Just you and me

No one else needed

You want a confrontation

So Be It

Stop hiding behind bitches

Deal with your own deviance

Weak ass

So let me get this straight

All these years

You have been doing the same

Sending rapists to me

To drug, abuse, kill

But they all stop short

“I can’t kill her

I want to be with her”

Every single rapist said

Unusual isn’t it

Yeah

In tradecraft

You learn how to get around

People’s fears

Deviance

Abusive ways

You have been trying to kill me

So long

I can hardly remember when

Yon didn’t

You were doing this the whole time

Pretending I was doing it

To myself

Why bother to pretend

I had a stroke from all the abuse

Lost all memories

I have epilepsy

Have had mini strokes since

All of you watching

Claiming I did this to self

But I’m the one sick

I have no desire to be near you

I have said it since I was 12

That’s not my cup of tea

You knew it was true

The same happened with Sting

Didn’t it

I just never knew

How deeply your weird ass felt rejected

How ridiculously you would take it

A lifelong commitment to torture

Because you had a hurt feeling

But I’m the one weak

When it takes you

Military grade weapons

Along with massive groups of people

Just to get a message to me

Just to stalk

Just to do any damn thing

Each of the ten

With GROUPS

Running massive ops

To do me in

Yet still haven’t

But piling up debts!!!

Scales will balance anyway

Are you serious

Wanting me to be like you

Junkies

You think you’re cool

You look like less than nothing to me

Funny

You all keep drugging me

But nothing you do

Makes me like you

Nothing

I’m still not an addict

Still not a slut

I still don’t sell myself

I still don’t prey

I still don’t practice evil

All of YOUR racist misogynist projections

FOR ALL THE WORLD TO SEE

MASK OFF NOW BITCHES

I WILL NEVER GO IN A BOX AGAIN

I WOULD RATHER DEFECT

Don’t turn on the red light you say

The red light is a signal for my extraction

Of course you don’t want that

Then you have the nerve

To get angry

When the attacker

Just wants to stay

Can’t put me down

Just like you

Don’t you think there is a reason

I haven’t done a thing wrong

All of you know it

The ones you thought were good

Turned out to be Satan

That’s why your’re all trapped

Blackmailed by your own sick deviance

Bound to the filth you manifest

You all deserve the hell you created

Puppets

Left to entertain

Nothing more

Just puppets who lost their battery

Because she grew wings and flew away

I NEVER volunteered burdens

Or submitted

I was getting tortured

You were forcing me to cave

To protect my kids

I have said it from the beginning

This isn’t romance

This is crime

Yet you pay people to run false narratives

Come on with it

I’ll chop their bitch asses down the same

You’re all fucking sick

Who does this

To women and children

Psychopaths

That’s who

Maybe someone should have told you

What a rooster is

In war

I’m the woman in the matrix

With the red dress

I’m also Neo

I’m also Trinity

I’m also Morpheus

He made sure each character

Had me in it

“We can’t put all these qualities in one person

It makes the story too difficult to comprehend”

None of your slow asses can grasp a thing

An experiment

I was put in as a kid

But somehow I deserved this????

Why

Because you want to rape and get away with it

You want to enslave and get away with it

You want to maintain a racisty nazi system and

Get away with it

Like I said

When you run false narratives

You’re selling ass for the devil

Angry about competition

Even your replacement killers

Refused to do me in

Obsessed just like you

I AM THE WEAPON

NO I WON’T SUBMIT

Funny thing is

It’s your fault

All your targeting and torture

Triggered my defenses

There is no going back

I’m here to clean up nazis and

Treason

Oh well

Should have chosen better

Under the prison

Into the pit

Bound for eternity

In a Gordian Knot you’ll be

Forever

Your one and only bride

Free

From all the psychopaths

Weird all you mfrs

Kept finding evil

Who wanted to marry me instead

You’re so angry

I kicked you out

For one night and

Made a baby

Keep in mind

The two you had

Which aren’t even yours

Were okay

You want poly for you

Prison for me

All I want is freedom

If I have to leave America for it

So Be It!!!!United Nations The White House Human Rights Watch

America rejected me in the crib

I have no problems leaving it all behind

None of this is worth a breath

While you spend all my money

Chasing diseased birds, chicken, fish, snakes

That you try to turn into me

These dumb bitches are willing to do it

Never asking

Why do I have to be someone else

To get his attention

Desperate

You thought she could be me

Weird

She’s a white supremacist

Inbred

No education

No job

No accomplishments

A whore

Diseased

Deviant

A junkie

No self esteem

No self respect

No self control

Like me?

Nothing

Only psychopaths

Behave this way

Predators

Focused on one thing

The thrill of the chase

“I want to keep the honeymoon forever”

Freak of nature

You cannot grow

There is nothing to grow into

The only seeds you ever had

I buried in you

You are your environment

Hell

Just DTF anyone, anything, anywhere

I never realized

How deep the obsession was

Until this moment

You destroyed your life

Just trying to hurt me

HAVE YOU YET GRASPED THE OBSURDITY

Look at all the devastation

Across all the decades

All of you

Preying on the innocent

You all deserve prison forever

Since leadership is complicit President Joe Biden Vice President Kamala Harris

I’ll call on the Angels

Who knows how to hold anyone accountable

For such abominations

I see glimpses of your expressions

Such rage

Constantly

Had to push past

So many amnesia walls

Where the memories were buried

All I could remember

Was when we were friends

Yet all of you

Knew well

None of this is sane

Thinking yourself superior

Because you prey

I wonder how many lives

You have destroyed

People are so convinced

You wanted me dead

But you knew

It would never work

You’ve seen it before

Over and over and over again

You participate in this ritual

Get off on it

Profit

Then watch me rise

Then start all over

So much work to suppress

Rape

Traffic

Steal

Kill

Abuse someone who did nothing

So convinced I cheated

Which I never did

But if I did

Would a lifetime of torture

Be the consequence????

YOU KNEW I WOULDN’T DIE

I NEVER HAVE

How many times we have gone through this

All to make me submit

You filthy piece of shit

I would LOVE to see you in person

Love to

But you and I both know

You can’t

Don’t take it as a compliment

Understand you deserve nothing

But your end

I didn’t even know it was you

On the other end

All these years

Screaming why can’t it be me

TO RAPE AND SLAVE ME FOR DECADES????

Weird question asshole

So many tells

You have people out here claiming

I didn’t know how to see a real man

Why not tell the truth

You were trying to mold me into a submissive

All of you have been

LETS SEE WHO CAN BREAK HER

Forty eight years and I’m still standing

NONE OF YOU MADE ME YOU FILTHY RAPISTS

You all bent me

Yet here I Am

Standing still

Ten toes down

While you all fake it

As I said

True power isn’t “taken”

It emanates

All this

Until the death Angel appears

I hope he looks like Chris

When you see him!!!!

I thought it was only my fictive and his minions

Doing all this

I didn’t know it was the ten

Oh well

Now they get to pay for it!

You’re right

You will forever be on the bottom of

The wheel

You deserve it

But for you

That means under the pit!

I have no idea how many of you deviants

Gather to watch me get abused

Raped

Over and over

Acting like

I deserve it

Getting off on the energy you take

While leaders pretend to lead

When in reality they are just preying

May all rot in hell

Include filthy practitioners

You pay to protect hell

These bitches are down for it

Thirsty for a dollar and attention

I said I came to clean it

I wasn’t playing

This web is done

Burnt

Forever

All who touched it

Sentenced

You go down with the ship

You deserve it

So Be It

Underneath it in fact

Along with

All your filthy options

Raping women out of jealousy

Then calling her a whore

“30 years I’ve known where you are every night except this one”

You lost your fucking mind

When I had a moment of privacy

For that I deserve to be slaughtered

Over and over and over and over again

Yet you think you’re superior

What a fucking delusion

All over consequences you created

I loathe you

All of you

Worst

I’m apathetic to your entire existence

Just like you were to me

As I said

Mirror

But I still have love in my heart

Just not or filth

Selling access for people to watch

Using tech and drugs and meds

To wipe my memories

This is torture

But all you sick mfrs call it romance

THEN YOU COMPLAIN BECAUSE I WANT TO DEFECT TO ESCAPE IT Human Rights Center

Over and over and over

You just keep raping and killing

This is what Lolita Express is

But no one will say it U.S. Department of State

You’re filth

Every one of you

The problem here is that

You didn’t think I would remember

No one told you

This was always going to be the outcome

You’re all just like Rumsfeld

Bush, Cheney, Rice, Biden, Clintons

All of you predators

With immunity CNN Washington Post HuffPost An Injustice! Voices Forbes Russia

If he can’t have me

No one can

Now his ass is dead

So Be It

They are all the same

Greedy deviants

Now you all

Are on the same path

He taught me how to get around

All of it

He wanted you all humiliated

Because you rejected him

Over and over and over

This is his game

None of you understood

All of you delusional

All of you treasounous

Like you wanted for me

You’re all exactly the same

No self esteem

No self worth

No self awareness

No self control

No ability to think for self

Addicted

Confused

Abused

Abusers

Bound together in crime

In time

In filth

Calling that shit love

It’s not even human

You belong where you are

With people like you

I was never apart of any of you

All of you forced yourselves on me

Then blamed me

Then lost yourselves

Because you knew

I didn’t deserve any of it

Now it’s time for you

To meet your maker

Reap as you have sown

For all the years of torture

Pain

Sadism

Caging

Enslavement

Reap

Every Tear

Every stroke

Every ounce of pain

Every child you abused and sold

Neglected

Every ounce of slander

All the theft and crime

Reap

All this

For pennies

All this for my inheritance

Mine

What I created

What I worked for

My endowment

Everything I owned

Taken

Coopted

Copied

Pasted onto whiteness

SMH

Sad

Not that I’m abandoning it

But if it was between what I’m owed and freedom

I’ll keep me

I can make more

Away from all the greed

DEFECT!

You’re all nothing but filthy

Greedy liars

Stealing from a poor Black family

A family you made poor on purpose

Out of envy

Because you felt rejected

Jealous

Envious

Sick

The filth is unfathomable to me

I could never want you

Never have I ever apparently

All that mind control was hard

To break through

But I did it

In spite of all your false narratives

Thanks for the help

All Angels!

Yet you still have the nerve

To claim you owe nothing

You deserve the filth you lay with

The diseased beds you manifest

That is all you have ever been

That’s why he called you dogs

You even laid in kennels

To get next to me

Remember that

I sure do

Dog.

Stay with your bitches and end there

So Be It

Murderer

2006 is just but one memory

You make excuses for

You have done this more times

Than I will ever remember

You destroy everything you touch

You and all those mutants

But you wonder why I keep saying

It will never be you

Because you’re not human

Assuming you can just

Wipe my memories again

You’re truly less than nothing

No wonder you’re so afraid

You know I see even a glimpse

Exactly what my reaction is

You really thought

This would work

But you got caught

“Someone abused their twin”

Evidence everywhere

I will DEFECT

Before I allow any of you near

This is disgusting beyond compare

Worse than any suicide cult

With this

Nothing compares

“He’s not allowed near”

You got caught

Now you’re losing it

Because you can’t get back in

But I’m not letting fake ass practitioners

Do me in either

To do it all over again

Filth

All of you!

You and everything around you

Racist

Predatory

Narcissistic

Delusional

Obsessive

Greedy

Lustful

Liars

This is how you treat your bride

Then expect to be blessed

SMH

Literally

I wonder what you tell our kids

How many are there?

Is it two?

I hope they get this message

Return to your mother

Flee from the pits of hell!

So Be It!