When Did I See You Last
When extreme obsessive aggressive stalking is all you have
Wasn’t it 1997
Maybe 98,99
I don’t remember
You know that
Because you wipe my memories
EVERY ENCOUNTER WE HAVE
THAT IS THE LEVEL OF CONTROL
THAT IS THE LEVEL OF INSANITY
YOU HAVE
YOUR FALSE NARRATIVES HAVE BEEN
MY ENTIRE EXISTENCE
JUST LIKE HIM
JUST LIKE ALL OF THEM!
You know for a fact
I loathe you
All of it
I’m not your object!!!!
When was the last time I saw you
In-person
I shouldn’t have to ask
I should know
But you suppress it
You refuse to answer
Is it because it was so long ago
Or is it because of the most recent events
Haven’t surfaced yet????????????????????
I loved you as a teen
I’m now a grown-ass woman
You destroyed what was there
Over and over
Expecting me to wallow with you
In filth
Expecting me to swallow abuse
Swallow self
THAT IS A BETRAYAL I COULD NEVER FORGET
Knowing I never would
Or could
So when was it
The last time I saw you in person
Answer me that
Better yet
Answer in public
As loud as you slander
But you won’t
Too weak and weird
Too attached to your false narratives
Trying to make fish and chicken
Appear to be Kingdom Kings and Queens
FOH
Trying to make chicken and fish
Look like diamonds
Trying to make chicken and fish
Look like me
If I’m such a nothing
Why does EVERYTHING AROUND YOU
Obsess over me
BECAUSE YOU DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Trying to make fish and chicken look like
They are anointed
SMH
Bruh
You really messed that up!
Not believing in reality
Not believing in spiritual protection
That’s literally why
I was abandoned by every human
The Most High wanted me
To be the reply
To those taunting
THE MOST HIGH STEPPED IN
TO MY PROTECTION
MY ANSWER
ALL THAT I NEED
Shaming all you fake ass men and women
Who claim to be what you’re not
Claiming to be me
Claiming to be anointed
When you’re not even human
Trying to assume my identity and
Paste it on hookers
For profit
You have preyed on me
Almost my entire existence
Clinging to me
Like the only light you have ever seen
Trying to catch something
Intangible and bottle it
Just clinging to me
Begging for handouts
But I thought you were so abundant!!!!!!
Like I’m your only oxygen
If you wanted to breathe me
You should have respected me
Instead
You wanted to be a slaver
Oppressor
Calling yourself a liberal
A patriot
A man
When all you give is sickness and chaos
Where is my kid?????????????????????????
It was NEVER about you
IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT HIM
But I don’t have to say that
You know
That’s why you won’t tell me
I will NEVER WANT YOU EVER
STAY WHERE YOU LAY
In the STD flea infested deathbed
You made for yourself
Forget I ever existed
Oh wait
You can’t
Because everything you are
Was taken from me
Without me
You don’t know how to exist
You don’t know yourself
You fucked yourself
Because you know
You are insane
But want to blame me
Want to force me
To sacrifice myself
My children
To save you
From your own sickness
Not even if my life depended on it
ALL THESE DECADES
YOU HAVE ACTED LIKE THIS
You have been cut off
Twenty five years
But still can’t stop obsessing
You literally have to create chaos
Being cruel
Attacking
Stalking
Using mind control
Using frequency weapons
Poisoning
Stalking
Hiring neighbors to stalk me
Private detectives
Flanking me with your freaks
Sadistic bitches
Paying people to steal and prey
Lie
Slander
Abuse
Kill
ALL THESE YEARS
This is what you have been doing
Stalking
Abusing
YOU KNOW I HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU IN ANY WAY
All these years
You have acted like this
Over some shit
That was NEVER real
Crying out
Calling out
Screaming
Begging
You could have kept me as a friend
If you were so desperate to be attacked
Instead
You invested all I had
All you are into keeping me trapped in enslavement
Using all my work
Creations
Resources
On fish, chicken, and fake-ass love
From a predatory family
Feeding rape, racism, theft
White supremacy
Pretending there was something
Still between us
When there was nothing
What we had died
When I was still a kid
We had a business arrangement
You have a debt to pay
That is THE ONLY thing
You knew was still real
Instead of accepting that
YOU USED MY FICTIVE
TO FORCE NAZI-LEVEL MIND CONTROL ON ME
You’re telling everyone
You hate me
When the truth is
You couldn’t let go and do anything
To keep me trapped
Including grouping up with nazis
To help you box me in
Desperate
I never needed you to explain anything
I needed you to check yourself
Your chicken, your fish, your inbred family
The predators that YOU triggered
Envious
Wanting to step into my life and be fake
Whatever relationship there was with us
Died when you tried to kill me
When I was still a teen
Because your whore and
Your weird ass family
Told you I cheated
And you snapped
True my fictive participated
But you want to blame me
You fuck up every decision you make
I’ve seen you do it since I was a tiny kid
Thinking I betrayed YOU
SMH
Imagine that
Judas isn’t in my DNA
This is AFTER you had repeatedly
Used mind control
To bind me to you
I know who you are
I always did
I was never confused
I always knew
I survived Jerome
What else could I do
I tried hard to help you
What you have done in exchange
Was nothing but abuse
I can’t even detail how tired I am of you
YOU HAVE NEVER BOUNCED BACK
Since that moment so long ago
Your sick ass family
Did all that on purpose
You never knew
I always wanted to tell you the truth
So you could release yourself and
Become human again
I hoped that would help you
Stop being a demon in my existence
But nah
I purged you and your stupid ass went right back
I’m not talking about fish and chicken
I’m talking about the devil
Instead of growing
You keep going deeper and deeper
Trying to keep me bound with you
I thought you healed
None of you did
Everything you were told was a lie
An illusion
You deserve the fish and chicken
That’s all you know
That’s all your used to
But you know that
It’s why you feel you’re not good enough for me
You never did
I always knew
I just didn’t exploit that
What do your fish and chicken do
About your insecurities
Hope, skip, jump all over them
I knew when I was still a little kid
This is the real you
You use demons masking as women
To abuse by-proxy
Pretending to be sacred
Soulmates
Empresses
Queens
Even the guys are demonic fake ass Kings
Everything you do is a simulation
Fake
A façade
Built to be plastic
You’re not even an Emperor yourself
That’s why YOU NEED ME!
YOU DON’T FUCKING OWN ME BITCH!
You all aren’t even on the board
But don’t know it
You all belong together
Because that’s who you are
A toxic ass soul group
Bound by filth
That was NEVER me
That’s why I will NEVER fit in that shit
I don’t have those paraphilias
It was all of YOU trying to attach to
MY MATRIX
I don’t even like you people
You were the only one I sort of tolerated
From a distance
But it required mind control for that
SMH
I never wanted you’re environment
I never did
It makes me physically ill
If I wanted that
I would have it
I manifest what I desire
Change!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know that
FOR DECADES
You did this
Kept me trapped in fuck shit
Behind my back
Never in my face
Twisted
Lying
Slandering
What the fuck is wrong with you
What kind of person
Behaves like this
You are so sick
I can’t even unsee it
Do you understand
You are so insane
On the level of a serial killer
I can NEVER accept that
YOU NEW
I WOULD NEVER WANT IT
So you partnered with my fictive
To use military-grade weapons
To stalk, invade, abuse
Invade, assault, strip me at every level
Did you hire rapists too
Like your sick Bitch did
Like your sick family did
It didn’t matter to you then
Why you still stalking
Because you feel rejected
EVERY TIME YOU FEEL IT
You act like this
As I said
You’re predictable
I can’t unsee YOU
Every Day
I will put you on front street
Until you learn
I Am not your tool
The last 3D memory
I have of you in person
As me
When you were you
Was twenty-five years ago
Is that true
In all these years
I have never been around you
Without all the intrigue
White rooms
Post-hypnotic cues
Energy weapons
Wiped memories
Abuse
All these years
I have never been around you
Without extreme levels
Of control
It wasn’t YOU with total control
It was HIM
THAT’S WHAT YOU WANT
To take his place
You know for a fact
It’s been over for years
But you COULDN’T LET IT GO
I would rather be tortured to death
Then deal with you
Many tried to be him
I expected that from all of you
What I didn’t expect
Was that
You would spend your life
Destroying mine
Because of a lie
Some dumb bitch told you
Running false narratives
That you’re a family man
Pretending to take care of someone
Who’s supposed to be your soulmate
Truth is
You hired a hooker to play me in my absence
A seat filler
Who couldn’t even do that correctly
When all she had to do
Was fucking be human
Weird because ALL your chicken and fish
Are just as impotent
Just like you
That’s why that’s what you attract
Thinking fish and chicken
Would make me jealous
You tripping
Truly
I look at you like a fool
Who needs mental help
Thinking it would make me jealous
But it never did
How could it
Just like the first bribe
You took
Another hired hooker
To attempt to make me jealous and
To gain profit in the
White supremacy space
You swim in
Claiming to be cool
Pretending to be in love
But you weren’t even lucid
You surround yourself with junkies
The mentally unstable
The sick
Because they are a reflection of you
Have you ever told them
They were filling a seat
For someone you are obsessed with???????
I did feel sorry for you
Most kids would
My fictive knew it would create a wound
He could play with
He did
Look at what it did to all of you
He used you to abuse me
You learned it from him
Toxic shit to get my attention
Monkey see
Monkey do
All of you are quite transparent
People who choose to wallow in filth
The bible warns a lot about that
This is your habit
You chose this for self
Demanding that I save you
That I join you
That I accept it
That I cover you
That I pretend it’s shiny
But it’s just shit
FOR DECADES
THE ONLY WAY YOU COULD GET
MY ATTENTION
IS TO USE CLASSIFIED FORMS OF
ABUSE AND CONTROL
DECADES!!!!
Are you serious
I see you
The longer YOU and YOUR CHICKEN
ALL YOUR FISH
ALL YOUR DUDES
ALL YOU FRIENDS AND FAMILY
All your associates
Whoever it is
You clique up with
To target and control
As long as you keep lying
Stealing
Abusing
Stalking
Targeting
Threatening
Slandering
Running false narratives
Anything
I will continue to expose
The real inner YOU
A psychopath who knows
NO LOVE
Other than
The one person sold to him
As a kid
For him to abuse
A fetish
Your home
Your nemesis
Because you and I both know
You have ALWAYS been surrounded
By people who are nothing but sick
I know that you keep me hidden
Because it’s the only way
You can protect me from all you created
To do me in
From your racists ass
Family and friends
I always understood
I have always preferred
That you simply let me go
But you wouldn’t
You didn’t
Still fighting to keep me bound and trapped
Just so you can play more games
Be a tyrant
Be a slave master
Be an oppressor
That’s so fucking unattractive
Why would I invest in that
I gave you a chance
Not knowing all you did
But all your abuse kept triggering memories
You created all of this
Because your filthy fish
Was still lying
Blackmailing
Triggered
Wanting me to remain attached to you
But YOU KNOW THE TOXICITY
Is far from anything
I will ever accept
You’re always doing things backward
I know what you have been doing
It’s not rocket science
It’s mental instability
Thinking you could keep me
Trapped
Penniless
Unprotected
Dangling
Decades
Thinking I would be desperate and
Accept you by any means
It’s not in my DNA
Not even your classified weapons
Could force me to do it
Decades
Not even my fictive
Could force me to do it
I have said it
Over and over
You know I won’t do it
The human I knew
He’s no longer in you
I don’t have to tell you
It eats away at you
The saddest thing I’ve ever seen
Is you willing to sell yourself to
The lowest pits of hell
For riches
Thinking you could keep juggling
That you could force me
To remain with you
When I make a commitment
It’s true
You know that
I never wronged you
But I was forced into
An entanglement with you
I accepted responsibility
Though it wasn’t my fault
In any way
“Nooo you can’t take yourself back
You’ve already promised
You already committed to me
You can’t leave
I won’t accept it”
I was like thirteen maybe fifteen
But I haven’t forgotten
That’s YOU!
It always has been
I was just a teen
I’m now 48
Nothing has changed
Yet YOU STILL ACT THIS WAY
Taking all
Giving nothing
Just keeping me tethered
Using military grade weapons and tech
To keep me trapped in a sick space
Trying to cage me
So I can’t escape
What you hid
Was that you never wanted me
To have my freedom
You wanted me permanently
Bound to you
I would rather be tortured to death
Can’t grow
Can’t save
Can’t do anything on my own
Can’t live my life
Because you won’t stop abusing
Stalking
Threatening
Stealing
Slandering
Defrauding
Taking my money
Taking my opportunities
Taking my essence
Taking my lyrics
Taking my music
Taking whatever I have
Taking everything
Anything
Then telling the world it’s you
Trying to make me invisible
Consuming me like Dahmer
“Oh that’s cool”
Thieving
Living lavishly off of me
Pretending to be happy
When nothing about your existence
Is real
You’re all paid actors
Pretending to be of The Kingdom
I’ve always seen you
Think I didn’t know
How low you would go
That’s why you scare me
YOU HAVE NO BOUNDARIES
AND YOU ARE CRAZY
AND YOU ARE AN ADDICT
AND YOU ARE VERY UNTABLE
AND YOU ARE OBSESSIVE
AND YOU ARE EXTREMELY VIOLENT
You’re inane and need intervention
Should have come in for healing
When you were called to
Now you’re a stray
Stay where you lay
You are just like him
You know I can’t stand it
I loathe everything you are
That human that used to live in you
Died a long time ago
Those feelings I had
Died with him
You don’t get it
Because you don’t understand
You died with him
This is for you
